PARADOXICAL

Forgive me, Lord, for my ego trips, for the times I:

Desire to be famous
Want to be in control, always thinking like a scientist, relying on my own intellect alone instead of uniting it with the Holy Spirit’s inspiration or entrusting it to you
Am passive instead of causing positive change, because of fear of failure and rejection
Am ambitious in any way
Desire financial/economic success foremost, because of prestige, status, estimation, respect, and the like
Am status-conscious, unknowingly looking down on others I deem inferior to me in any way
Want to be unique and special, rising above the crowd
Want to prove myself, enslaved by others' high expectations of me
Want to please, even impress, mere creatures by wanting to be right and look good because of fear of not being loved and accepted
Want to be needed, be useful, and be relevant and be noticed for it
Am infantile by trying to get what I want right here right now
Hunger for more recognition, more achievements even if I practically grew up with them
Want to be the best for my own personal glory
Lack zeal in you, too shy or timid in defending You or initiating things for You
Do not believe and trust enough in Your love for me
Compensate for my insecurities through study, associations, friendships, substances/food, things I used to lack, things I think I need for my lifestyle, and other things that might give me the high
Rush things because I feel they are very important when they are not (they are merely meant to fill my empty ego)
Do any other forms of idolatry I am not even aware of.
Even lie and kill reputes for all this
Then neglect you in favor of all of the above


Thank You, Lord. I claim Your loving forgiveness of all these sins.