PARADOXICAL

I am glad to be able to get up and be alive this morning. I am thankful to get to this point, considering what I go through each day. 

Am I happy and contented with my life or the kind of life I've had so far? To be honest, no -- I wish it could be something else, something much better.

But what good is regret? For the most part, I live in the now, -- or I choose to. I know my life is wanting in so many respects, but if I focus on the things I don't have, I'd end up wallowing in self-pity. I choose to focus on what I have instead.

As I look back at the more than five decades of my existence, I can say for certain that my life have been rich in another way, which is a great consolation. I mean, I have been rich, not in the conventional way of being rich and famous, happily married with kids, with a successful career, but in terms of experiences, the breadth and scope of knowledge and I have, the many unseen benefits of that (which is largely about appreciating life in all its splendor). I have been blessed much in this regard. 

And on top of that, if I take into account all the answered prayers to all my supplications, it would be much too ungrateful for me to complain.

posted by Resty Odon  # 12:09 AM